Julie

9. June 2008 by Julie.

Hi guys,

What a long weekend.  We had a lot of baseball and spent most of it in the parking lot waiting for the lightning or rain to subside.  But when we did get to play Thomas did so well.  He plays 1 st base and sometimes right field.  I love to watch him. Everytime he does well he looks over at Tom and I and gives us the “thumbs up”.   Wanted to do some yard work but didn’t have the time or energy.  I’m so far behind when it comes to my flowers and mulch this year.  Of course, the weather hasn’t been on our side either. 

Well, I’m still feeling good but I’ve been having a  lot of Braxton Hicks. Doc says its normal and everything checks out fine but they have been pretty strong and I’ve never had them before.  I’m 31 wks now so I’m on my way soon. Thomas can’t wait.  He says its going to be the best birthday present ever.  His birthday is a few weeks before the baby is due.  But both kids will be born in July.  This week my dad is coming in from Orlando for a week.  So I’m doing some major cleaning in my guest bedroom since there are maternity clothes scattered through out.  Plus I think its time to do the job of cleaning out Jessie’s room.  I’ve asked Tom to help me because I get anxiety just thinking about it.  Its not so much her actual room as its all the “post” Minnesota clothes and her bedding and pillow that upsets me.  Even as much as her socks and pajamas in her drawers.  I still have a small pile of T-shirts that she wore the last few weeks that I could never wash or put away.  The “smell”.  I wish Che could be here to help me. I wish Jessie could be back laying in her bed again.  That’s why I’m so worried when the doctor tells us what sex the baby is and I’ll be disappointed if its not a girl.  I know that sounds bad but I’m mixed.  Of course I don’t care as long as its healthy but in one way I just want my girl.  I’ve lost two, so why can’t I just have one more?  Sometimes I think maybe its better if I did have a boy.  That way I won’t compare the baby to Jessie or who knows.  I ask Jessie to give me whatever she thinks would help me.  I leave it up to her.  She knows what’s best.  I do believe she has her hands in this all.  Well, thank you for checking in.  Its nice to have you all back again.  June 17th is our last day at school.  Can’t wait.  Then we have so much to do for this baby.  Hope you all have a great week.  Say some prayers for our sick kids and keep Jessie in your hearts.

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