Disappointed

25. July 2008 by Julie.

Well Ryan didn’t come home today.  He failed his test miserably.  He had too many Apnea spells they thought. So they put him on medicine and will repeat the 3 day test again on Monday.  Of course when I got to the NICU and saw Tom holding Ryan giving me that “look” I cried.  We were so excited.  Thomas was even more excited.  None of the nurses expected him to fail.  They were as shocked as we were but yet siad this was very typical.  I’m so sick of hospitals. I just want him home. I’m sick of pumping every 2 hrs and then having to bring it to the hospital for night feeds, pulling the curtains closed when I want to nurse him, having to answer to the nurses when I can change his diaper or take his temprature.  I just want to love him at home.  I hate leaving him there.  I hate kissing him goodbye and not being able to see him until the next morning. Let’s hope it is just one more week.  We need to be home altogether.  Have a good weekend.  I’ll update later.

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