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- 24. October 2008: A need of prayer
- 14. October 2008: A Fun filled Weekend
- 30. September 2008: Hello All
- 28. September 2008: Picture Site
- 17. September 2008: Getting Big
- 10. September 2008: Sweet Jessie
- 4. September 2008: We are back
- 21. August 2008: What a Day!
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- 10. August 2008: Life is good
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Sweet Jessie
Hello all. I think we are finally getting Fall weather. Its been chilly and damp now. I feel like summer was never here. We had a few hot days but nothing like normal. Pretty soon the cold weather will be here and we will all be wishing we had this weather. Oh well!! Ryan is doing well. Not napping for long during the day as much as I would like him too but that’s okay. More time to give him kisses. Sunday will be Jessie’s 2 year anniversary. Can you believe it? I can’t. Its still not fair. Some days I feel like she’s been gone for a life time and others I feel like it was yesterday. Even though I made Jessie’s room into Ryan’s, Thomas will not step foot into it. If I ask him to get something out of there for Ryan, he refuses. I feel so bad for him that he still hurts. I can’t get over the love he had for her at such a young age. Its amazing to me. I still have her glasses on the bathroom counter where I put them one day when she was living but they were bothering her so I set them on the bathroom counter for some reason or another and today they still sit there. When I clean the bathroom counter, I dust her glasses off and put them back where they were. I have her pink Nike shoes that she wore a few times still sitting on our entertainment unit along with the clippings of her curly hair that Marisa her Hospice nurse cut when she passed away for me to have. The “famous” Cleveland golf hat still remains unworn in our closet that we have her picture taken in when we thought she was healthy and Tom wore it all the time in Minnesota because she loved to stare at it. It simply sucks!! And in every room there’s a piece of her. And even though, Ryan brings me great joy and happiness that I haven’t felt in a long time…..my heart still feels heavy for Jess. I’m very lucky to have my boys and I love them to pieces but it would be nice to have my girls also. I guess I have my family of four but they are not all with me here. And now I face the questions again about why the big gap in ages but I tell them now that I have one in the middle that passed away . I say it proudly because Jessie was so strong and courageous and I want to be just like her and let everyone that she was our precious angel. So now I sing Ryan all the songs that I sang to Jessica and sometimes I cry while I sing them and other times I look at Ryan and see Jess through his eyes. The last few days I have been seeing a white butterfly hanging around my deck in the backyard. I go out and talk to it (if someone saw mew they would think I was crazy) but maybe it is her knowing that its not a good time this month and she’s with me. Who knows but the mind makes you think all different kinds of things. So why not? One day we will know. We love you baby girl and we miss you terribly. I hope you are laughing and happy up in heaven. I hope you and Anna are great friends. At least you are at peace now sweet girl. Mommy gives you butterflies kisses……..
10. September 2008 at 15:04
Oh Julie…I am so sorry to hear that Thomas is still hurting so much.
I think about you all often, and check your site almost every day, just to see if you are ok. I hope you had a good Anniversary. Phil & I celebrate just two days before you…and two less years. How funny.
I know this weekend will be a hard one for you all. I will say a prayer so that it will pass easily for you.
All Our Love from Michigan.
10. September 2008 at 20:14
Hi Julie,
Of course the butterfly is your precious Angel….where else would she be, other than beside you to remind you of how much she loves you all. The glasses left on the bathroom counter….let it be. And the shoes and every little thing in every room that reminds you of her. Bittersweet, yes, but comforting I’m sure. Hold each other tight this weekend, and celebrate the bond you all share. The Love, The Laughter, and yes, the Tears too…It’s defined as “family”. xoxo
11. September 2008 at 09:27
Thinking of you and your entire family.
13. September 2008 at 15:14
Hi ,
Julie & family
Thinking of you it does not seem like two years. Time just don’t wait for anyone.
I am so happy that God has Blessed you with another baby ryan is healing for you all and yes he will bring memories of your loved ones lost but you aren’t thinking all the bad when this comes when these memories come they are all the happy meroies that Jessie & God wants you to remember. we always forget the bad all that we have been thru yes, I think of all the bad that terrell has faced but then all the good memeories take over. It’s a jourany some us families have faced some of these jouarnies I wish we so different but all in all on this jouranay I know I would of never ever met some truly amazing families and wil always hold them close to heart. They are my jourary families that truly understand where some us have been and only what the best for each other and we have learn what the real vaules are in life.
Know I still check in hoping for soem pics.( I better not speak to loud) I have to get Terrell’s updated.
Sending many butterflies hugs on Sunday & prayers of strength as another day,year comes and goes but rememebr the happy memeories.
love always from Iowa
The Baumler’s
www.caringbridge.org/ia/terrell
14. September 2008 at 13:05
Thinking of you today on this, the 14th… I know today will always be difficult for you and there is no consolation for that, Julie…but, at the same time, I don’t believe for one second that it’s a coincidence that you can see her through Ryan’s eyes at times. In some way, it must be God’s way-and her way-of telling you that she’s okay. Hang on to those beautiful boys…they are your miracles as I’m sure you know
God bless the Tucker family today and always…
Hugs,
jess D.
14. September 2008 at 19:20
Jessica- I am thinking of you sweet angel… you are alwways in my heart.
Julie, Tom and family- we pray for you today and believe that each memory brings you joy and comfort and that the perfect peace of God is with you. I know you there will always be a whole in your heart but each day forward will bring you new blessings and hopes.
Trust in God to continue to bring you through and he will Thomas too- one day he will love that room again.
I love you and think of you always- my heart and hugs are sent across the miles.
God bless- Sweet Ryan, you are a miracle- jess- you are forever an angel sent by God to touch us all.
17. September 2008 at 14:30
Tucker Family,
Thoughts were with you on the 14th & everyday. It does seem like just yesterday Jessica was with us. What a perfect symbol of Jessica’s visit then a white butterfly; an angle. All our love and prayers to your family & sweet loving memories of Jessica. Love, Maureen, Tim, Connor and Delaney XOXOXOXO
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